IS THIS A SAFE SPACE??

 "Drop one Banger and ghost off, hehehehe".  Maybe this isn’t the best way to make a comeback, but I’ve been experiencing what I’ll call a "little writer’s block." For two months now, I’ve been trying to write, but I haven’t been able to produce a coherent paragraph. I haven’t been able to tell stories the way I like, or maybe I’ve just been striving for a certain level of perfection.

Today feels a little different. I don’t really care how incoherent or imperfect my paragraphs are. I just want to tell my story and enjoy writing, as I’ve always done. So there’s no subject here—just random thoughts, more like a diary entry.

I’ve struggled with inconsistency and procrastination for some time. One of my greatest idols, Chimamanda, says that "procrastination is the outcome of fear." For the longest time, I thought it was my drive for perfection that led to procrastination, but what Chimamanda said feels like the perfect explanation for "my problem." My fear of being seen, and of how people perceive me, has stopped me from actualizing all the beautiful ideas in my head. "What if I fail?" "What if you don’t?" "What if they don’t like it?" "What if they do?" Am I really shy? These are some of the internal battles I fight. My fear of failure has kept me in my own way for a long time. For someone who firmly believes they can do anything they put their mind to, I’ve successfully deceived myself into believing, "Maybe not now."

My dearest Ndubunma, first of her name, first of her kind, life is too short to be afraid of being human. My darling girl, you have so much potential to be too scared to be yourself. Your first podcast episode might not be perfect; you might not have it all figured out all the time, but remember: life is a process. Don’t stop being unapologetically you, and remember, you lose 100 percent of the shots you don’t take. I love you so much.

I hope this  space is safe enough to be vulnerable??

Till next time , remember  I love you and it's ok to be vulnerable sometimes,

Lots of love💕,

BUNMA💕.



Comments

  1. Oh my word
    Definitely wearing that crop top I’ve been avoiding this week
    Thank you💕

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  2. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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  3. Ndubunmaaaa The only of her kind

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  4. Ndub...dearie, you have put into writing the fears of many.....you are the best,

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  5. “The scariest moment is always just before you start.”
    —Stephen King
    You're a born writer my dearest Ndubunma, keep up the good work. I'm really wowed by your thoughts

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  6. Oh wao. What a way to calm the storm of fear in many circumstances. Weldone. Keep soaring, the sky is your ladder

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  7. This is very beautiful.
    It's a deep picture of the actual struggle writers go through, not just writers but everyone. Well done 💯

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  8. Believe in yourself and go for it girl 💪💕

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  9. Wow, incredible! The timid child I once knew has blossomed into a talented writer! Congratulations on overcoming your shyness and taking the leap. Now, it's time to leave an indelible mark on the world.

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  10. Next time you get writer's block, say 'I am chosen ' 3 times🤣

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  11. Wow, beautiful! Dearest Bunma weldone. Just keep focus, great success await you.

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  12. I admire your Literary skills/prowess.It is inborn in you👍Keep it up.Like father Like daughter.The sky is your stepping stone.

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  13. Really cool piece of writing! Loved hearing your thoughts—nicely done!

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  14. "Note to self:" A brilliant write-up that aptly captures the silent struggles of many.

    The harsh reality is that not starting guarantees zero progress, and since time waits for no one, it will pass regardless of how you choose to spend it. Procrastination, a dream killer!

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  15. This is such an amazing piece, I should probably print it out and paste on my room wall😂

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  16. "My dearest Ndubunma, first of her name, first of her kind..." I love this line so much. You're too good. Keep the good work Imax.

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  17. My dear baby, your thoughts are not out of place. It is common with everyone who is talented.
    Just remain focused and refuse every negative thoughts. The sky is your limit

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  18. Aww Big sister, it’s okay not to be okay sometimes 😔 but surely it will get better ❤️

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  19. Realll, I know what it is experiencing Writer’s Block and how difficult it is to make a come back, but keep going girlll!💕

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  20. I am awed by this piece. By it you have killed the WRITERS, BLOCK 🚫 that was trying to rear its ugly head in you. Writing is innate in you so you don't need a sledge hammer to "SCARTTER" the block; you only need your pen and will power. So Foorrwwaarrdd March !!!!

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  21. Bums girl. Success is urs , keep moving, u will surely get there my cutie.

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  22. I really needed this. This is the problem of most people of our generation now-procrastination!
    You can do it! And you can do it NOW!

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  23. This is so beautifully written Imax💕

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  24. Awww this is so cutee and i relate to it so well. Well done Imaxxx😝💋

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