A DATE WITH MY YOUNGER SELF

I sat with my younger self today for Amala because I wanted to remind her that it is a safe space.

We both arrived late. Punctuality was clearly still a problem for us, but I told her how I had somehow managed to become a punctuality prefect in secondary school. We laughed. I don’t know if she believed me, but she’ll see.

I watched her eat excitedly. I still loved Amala as much as she did—if not more now.

She asked if I had finally decided on a career path. I said no, but at least now, I knew some things I wanted to do.

I told her I had learned to love reading novels, although I still struggled with consistency.

She asked if we still played the violin. I told her I hadn’t played in years, but I promised to start again because I knew how much she loved it. I missed it too.

I told her I loved that I was understanding Mum a lot better, and she was understanding me too.
I had realized she was just a girl—figuring things out, just like me.

She asked if we were still shy. I told her yes, but we had learned to walk into rooms without folding ourselves in half.

She grinned. “Do we still write?”

“We never stopped.” And we still hope someday it becomes our profession.

I told her I was still intelligent, still sharp, but I had grown more confident too. I was learning to embrace it without fear.

I told her I no longer shrank myself to make others comfortable, that I was learning softness didn’t mean weakness.

I told her I had learnt to smile with all my teeth and that I didn’t care how crooked they were anymore.

She listened, wide-eyed, dipping her Amala into the soup like it held all the answers.

She smiled at me, and I knew she was proud.

But we still cried about things we don’t speak about.

I told her I was still uncertain about a lot of things, but I had hope.

I didn’t have all the answers yet, but I had faith.

Her eyes welled up with tears—uncertain about a lot of things.
I looked at her endearingly, knowing she had no idea how much strength she carried.

I reminded her that I am because she was.

“Hang in there, and remember—no pressure,” I said, as I gave her the tightest hug.

And we parted, to meet again.



Comments

  1. AnonymousMarch 2, 2025 at 1:11 PM

    A beautiful write up. This write up embodies the theme of self growth and hope. It’s really lovely.

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  2. AnonymousMarch 2, 2025 at 1:25 PM

    Lovely read

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  3. LeticiaMarch 2, 2025 at 9:54 PM

    Oh awesome! You are growing into a more confident person, discovering more and more your personality. Keep it up my Dear

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  4. Adebayo oladipoMarch 2, 2025 at 10:16 PM

    Interesting

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  5. DorothyMarch 2, 2025 at 10:32 PM

    Very interesting and fresh read. I’d love to read the continuation

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  6. AnonymousMarch 3, 2025 at 12:56 AM

    Interesting read. Good luck

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  7. AnonymousMarch 3, 2025 at 1:46 AM

    Very very interesting..... no pressure

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  8. AnonymousMarch 3, 2025 at 2:35 AM

    Wow!!!! This is beautiful.. There's always room for growth. I love reading your write-ups.

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  9. AnonymousMarch 3, 2025 at 7:02 AM

    Entertaining and inciting. The account speaks of self awareness, self reflection and determination to be better in life endeavours. One thing is certain the new or currently is ready to take the world by storm. Congratulations

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  10. AnonymousMarch 3, 2025 at 7:18 AM

    Good job keep it up dear

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  11. AnonymousMarch 3, 2025 at 10:44 AM

    Awesomely Great writing and especially the FAITH therein.
    Fidelis

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  12. AnonymousMarch 3, 2025 at 4:23 PM

    Brava 👌
    A good display of phases of life and gaining more confidence with time.

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  13. Lamyn SpecMarch 4, 2025 at 3:23 AM

    I like the creative concept of conversing with your younger self. It makes the article interesting. 💓

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  14. William CreativeMarch 4, 2025 at 4:53 AM

    Lovely

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  15. AnonymousMarch 4, 2025 at 4:19 PM

    You are evolving to become great..your best is yet to come. Weldone

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  16. AnonymousMarch 6, 2025 at 5:09 AM

    This a Wonderful one🫶

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